I laughed when I opened my journal tonight because honestly, today was a mess. Not a single thing went the way I planned. And I’m not trying to sugarcoat that. It was a shitty day. One of those days that feels heavy from start to finish.
It started with a two-hour drive to work. Two hours just to get there. That alone set the tone. Somehow, I found good parking almost immediately, which never happens, but even that felt like a tiny win buried under exhaustion.
Then I got the call every parent dreads. My son had been in a fender bender. My heart dropped, instantly. But the relief came just as fast: he was okay. The accident wasn’t serious. The damage wasn’t terrible. We have insurance. It wasn’t even his fault. Could it affect our rates? Maybe. But we’ll deal with it if it does. What mattered was that he was safe. Everything else is just logistics.
Work was its own struggle. Things piled up. Stress sat heavy. I let myself feel it. I complained. I needed to get it out. But at some point, I caught myself and decided I didn’t want to stay in that space all day. So I did something simple and honestly kind of hard: I listed five good things about my day.
It took effort. This wasn’t one of those “gratitude comes easily” days. I had to reach for it.
- I had a good lunch.
- My mandarins were really good.
- I found good parking.
- My son was safe.
- I made it to work safely.
That was it. Nothing deep. Nothing poetic. Just real.
Now I’m home. And that’s the part that matters most. I’m in my safe space, with my son and my dogs, and the day is finally over. I won’t pretend today wasn’t draining because it was. I feel depleted. But I also feel grateful. Grateful that when my son needed help, family could get to him quickly. Grateful for coworkers who told me to leave if I needed to. Grateful that no matter what happens with insurance or expenses, I’ll figure it out.
Life doesn’t always go how we want it to. Some days hit harder than others. This was one of them. But I’m proud of myself for not sitting in the negativity. I let it out, then I cut it off. I chose not to let the day define me.
Not every day is beautiful. Not every day feels inspiring. Some days are just about surviving them with your heart intact. Today was one of those days. And I’m thankful I made it through.
Affirmation Of Visions 