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You Will Come Back, Just Stronger

“Is a little sad but will get over it eventually, I presume”

I logged in to my old Facebook account and found this written on a status update in 2008. This update was written right after my divorce. At the time I felt like a failure. I was on the verge of getting my car repossessed. I was lonely. My kids had a step parent and a baby brother on the way, and my grandmother had passed away. There were so many charged things happening at once and I never thought I’d get out of that dark tunnel. I was barely making any money, and I thought I would never fill the emptiness I had inside. Crazy how just reading that status took me back and reminded me of who I was 10 years ago. However, it reminded me how I took that setback and made it an even stronger comeback. The best part? I did get over the sad. Time heals all. The important thing is that you put in the best effort to use that sad and turn it in to something positive. You have to take that setback and decide if it is more important to sit there and sulk over it or do something about it.

My best suggestion is doing things to fill your time so you aren’t thinking about everything you don’t have or are negative about. Read a book that enlightens you. Download the mingle app and find out things happening in your area that are in your interest and go to them. Did you know they have mingle book clubs? Bike groups? Cycling groups? People who socialize in basically every topic you can think of. Get out there and be around like minded people. Surround yourself with people that are going to force you to be positive. It is so much easier to be sad. However, don’t allow the sad to stay so long it now lives in you without paying rent.

Let your comeback be stronger than your setback

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Rise

I want to be better. I need to better. I’ve spent years trying to fill my void with a vision of what my life should be. It brought me anxiety. It made me judge anything and everything that wasn’t at the standard of what I thought life should be. But why? Life should be lived minute by minute. Life should be complicated and when it is, we should learn from it. The exciting part is letting it unfold as it should while putting in effort to be better with every second of every single day. I’ve reflected so much lately. I was struggling with this underlying constant anxiety that I didn’t understand. I hated it. It had lived rent free in the pit of my stomach as long as I could remember. Then I realized it was because I was trying to take the drivers seat on what my life outcomes should be. Who am I to know that? All I can control is how I live my life. Do I enjoy what I have? Do I appreciate what I have? I sat with a glass of wine today on my front lawn looking at my home. I took it in for a second. I took in my car, took in the fact that my 2 beautiful children were sitting on their beds, playing their Xbox feeling safe and content with the home I have provided for them, by myself. I took in the fact that they are such amazing kids, because I have strived to raise them as best as I can. And then I paused and I asked myself why I waste so much energy on trying to manipulate my outcomes to be what I think I they should be. My life has not been at all what I wrote up in my mind but here I am. A home, a car, beautiful children, a good job, and blessed. I have friends that pray for me. Friends! Yes, friends that take time to pray over me and my family so that we rise, so that we succeed, so that we are safe and happy. So, I’m letting go. I’m living. I’m loving. I’m enjoying. I’m only looking at today. Thank you God for my struggles. I got this.