If I really stop and analyze the worry cycle within myself, it’s a combination of frustrating, enthralling, annoying yet empowering. I will start to think of a problem, stress myself beyond measure at all the possible horrible outcomes, remain stagnant for a few days with very little action and then out of no where I will find this drive to do whatever it is that I need to do to solve my problem. The latter part of this cycle is amazing. However, I am working to diminish the middle part where I wallow in self-pity until I kick myself into gear. Its that middle piece that weakens me. It is a part of me I strive daily to improve on. I have closed that window of time these days. Mainly because I look back and can see how many things I have overcome. Problems I never thought would get resolved are way back in my rearview mirror. This year I set out to work on myself. I feel as though there is always room for improvement. However, I knew it was going to take much more than just pep talking myself and reminiscing on how far I have come. I decided my commutes would be filled with knowledge. I am on book 8 in my audiobooks. Authors ranging from Gary John Bishop, Gabrielle Bernstein, Joel Osteen, Rachel Hollis, etc have been my brain food in self-improvement. Its almost as though I carry these personal motivational speakers with me at the cost of a monthly credit I receive from Audible. I feel so much more whole the more books I listen to. I have even listened to some twice! As soon as I feel myself rolling back to old habits of self-pity, I hit play and listen to something that will kick me right back to where I need to be. Part of my not looking in the rearview mirror is training my mind to react differently. I even take different routes to places, switch around my daily routine, anything that will jerk me into a new mindset. As I mentioned in one of my previous blogs, “I want to be better. I need to be better”. Even when I am 70 years old, my goal is to be better than I am today. It is forever a work in progress. I want my experiences, whatever they may be to be worth every second.
Self Reflecting
Author: affirmationofvisions
Hi, I’m Mercy. Life has taken me through many seasons, some beautiful, some painful, and many that reshaped me in ways I never could have planned. Over a decade ago, I began writing as a way to survive a difficult chapter of my life. Since then, my journey has expanded, deepened, and taken more turns than I ever imagined. Today, my children are adults, and I find myself in a new season, one of reflection, intention, and rediscovery. I’m no longer building life from the ground up, but rather learning how to live it with presence and purpose. This space has evolved with me. What I write about now isn’t about chasing happiness or manifesting a perfect future. It’s about learning how to stay grounded in the present. It’s about faith over fear, gratitude over anxiety, and choosing intention in a world that constantly pulls us in every direction. It’s about growth, real, imperfect, human growth. I’ve learned that life doesn’t move in straight lines. It loops, pauses, reroutes, and sometimes asks us to begin again, just from a wiser place. Writing has remained my anchor through all of it. It helps me slow down, make sense of my thoughts, and reconnect with what matters most. This blog is a collection of reflections from someone still becoming. I don’t write as an expert or a coach with all the answers. I write as a woman who has lived, learned, stumbled, healed, and continues to choose intention, one day at a time. If you’re here, maybe you’re in a season of your own, letting go, starting over, or simply learning how to breathe a little deeper. Wherever you are, I hope these words remind you that growth doesn’t have an expiration date, and peace is something we practice, not something we arrive at. I’m glad you found your way here. View All Posts
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